Back Again...

Wow, been trying so hard to log in! Almost forgot how to.... But well,I guess I will try to come in more often from now on!

Stress...

It's only been a few days but it has started to take a toil on me... My throat is rough.... sore throat coming... Gastric threatening... Urge to smoke is back.

It has been a long while since I touch the sticks but I seriously need one now...

And my concentration at work is going way downhill....

Arghhhh.... Shit....

Exhausted...

It's been really a long time since I came here... It's a wonder they have not removed this space yet.

Maybe no one is following this page anymore but it doesn't matter. I need to let it out somewhere...

Feeling really really exhausted. 5 years later, I have to go through the same thing all over again. I have to put up a false strong front but internally, I'm really bleeding big time.

Why must you do that again? Do you think for your own satisfaction and enjoyment we need to bear these? I'm really really tired. But I just can't cry.

I need to get away... RIGHT NOW....