Disappointment

Not so much on the trip but on the decision that follows.

I am denied the Japan trip I was hoping for at the end of this month. Never mind that it was allocated to the Bu*** but the reason why I was denied and the subsequent 'to happen' events.

The reason I was denied was that I had been there before. My M denied my second chance again in October. I kinda expected not to be able to go for the one in Oct as she already told me I will be on course for 2 days. But was kinda sad that she didn't allow me on the upcoming one. and 4 days after he/she return from the Japan trip, My M is sending the Bu*** to another famil trip to Cherating with a part-timer. And My M was thinking of sending the part-timer on the Oct Japan trip.

I have other new perm staff at my counter but she is not sending them. Especially for the famil trip.

I know life is never fair but this is way off. Too visible. Too obvious.

I really need to leave this place.... Soon....